BluE

Has a nasty case of the blues today.
My bf went for qingming staff. I want to go shopping at midvalley but I just know the way to Sunway.
After 78 minutes driving about like a chicken with it's head cut off, end up with, me, ALONE, writing blog here at my brothers' place.
I've being too dependant on him. Okay i know i can't lay the blame on him but its just too convenient to have a GPS-liked bf bringing me to everywhere i want to go....n that stopped me from learning.
Wonder ..what if one day he left me? what if one day he loves me no more? I never have these kind of trash in my mind before, but lately....
well, nothing had changed between yesterday and the day before and the day before the day before, but 'm not sure why... i'm becoming *vulgur*, (tats the word i used to dexcribe those gals who keep asking their bfs whether love them or not), may be its because i'm getting old?...may be my from-no-where confidence die away to no-where.... may be its because of the disatisfaction in works......may be its simply delayed reaction to past life-disappointment.. hmmm..